Goal Setting

OK time to get real, stop talking (whining) and start doing.
Time to set some goals in place and get back on track.
So with this in mind what exactly do I want?
 My number one "want" is to get back to CrossFit. I can't explain how much I miss it, the training, the community, the feeling of personal achievements (once you stop thinking you are dying). Most people know about my ongoing shoulder issues and I won't bore you all once again except to say I plateaued with my recovery ,was advised to stop CrossFit at this stage and and have reached a crossroads as to treatment options.
I started running more, occasionally riding my bike but wasn't happy. I don't enjoy running, it doesn't come easy and the voices in my head won't be silenced. Living with someone who still regularly Crossfits despite an injury adds fuel to the voices and self doubt. Slowly the running time and distance lessened until it was virtually non existent. Not surprisingly as the running declined so did my fitness and motivation. I think the final straw was volunteering at a fundraising competition for the local box. I had a fabulous day but at the back of my mind was that niggling little voice wishing that I was able to do more than just judge, I wanted to be doing those WODs.
So what now? Time to take control back, stop wallowing in self pity.
First step is to get a second opinion, so making the decision re surgery is totally and fully informed. I have been burying my head in the sand and ignoring it all doesn't change a thing.
In the mean time it's back to running, at least it is a focus and something that is achievable. It seems a lot of people like me don't particularly like running but they do it anyway. I have a plan to build slowly, I think we all start with good intentions and admiral goals, then find ourselves overwhelmed and under enthused with our progress. I am being realistic and am not going to focus on the distance but instead time, the following quote makes sense to me;
"Be a minuteman "The biggest mistake that new runners make is that they tend to think in mile increments-1 mile, 2 miles, 3 miles. Beginning runners need to think in minutes, not miles." -Budd Coates, four-time U.S. Olympic Marathon Trials qualifier/coach"
I will listen to my body and not the voices, small steps are better than no steps.
She who never risks going beyond her limits should never complain about the mediocrity of her existence